THERE'S NO HIDING THIS!
SO WE MIGHT AS WELL EXPLAIN IT

Objections will come too late, and it wouldn't have made any difference anyway.

I'm going to be myself, I know no other way to be.

   We have but one life, and personally, I want to live mine to the fullest possible and experience all that I am curious about. This has been a curiosity of mine for some time now and I've often considered doing it when I turned 27 or 32. The thought has been in the back of my head since I was about 19 although I never thought of it as more than anything but an amusement, really. That was until I met a man who was short one finger. His middle finger was but a nub, and it did not seem to phase him or hold him back from anything. It was then that I realized how deep my fascination with the thought of it was, and how much i wanted to know more about it the only true way anyone could, by experiencing it first hand.

   When I was twenty three I was hospitalized for burns which covered approximately 70% of my body. After a week of having my skin-less legs washed, daily, I had skin sliced off of my thighs and stapled to my legs only to have my legs soaked in a medicated solution, every four hours, for five straight days. I never slept. Then I spent another week walking to the wash room, with skin stapled to my deteriorated leg muscles to have them washed again, daily, for another week. I spent three weeks experiencing a pain and personal hell that i never could have fathomed with all of my imagination. There was nothing like it, and there is no way to describe it, except to say that i have been to hell.

   I learned one thing because of all that however, and that is that I can do fucking anything.

   It was about a year after my stay in the hospital that I decided I wanted to go through with it. I had experienced the worst and most excruciating pain i hope i ever know, and I hope no one ever has to find out what that is like. However I feel it has well prepared me for pain, endurance, emotional strength and personal willpower (not to mention personal wound care treatment which i had to do plenty of, for far too long, after i was released from the hospital).

   I feel I could not be more prepared to do something i once thought would be too much pain to bear. I feel i could not be more willing, or any more excited, to experience something i have thought about and been fascinated by for years. I feel that i could not be more ready and able than i am right now, to perform this body modification.

   I know i am not the only one out there who has the desire to experience and undergo such a modification. I have been talking about this with others in the fields of body modification, and giving it a lot of thought and consideration. Not just as to how, but why, and if i am sure. I know how, I know why, and I am definitely sure.

   I want to experience what it is like, the yearning i feel can not be satisfied any other way, and i want to do it as a commitment to myself. Something that says i am ready to do what i want to do in and with my life. Something that says I am wanting to explore, to live to the fullest, to learn and to experience that which interests me. To start this adventure i am going to be removing my left ring finger at the first joint above the knuckle.

   I want, and desire, to have a nub.

~ Jason,
Owner & Operator of Hoy So